Battle

Morning sun peeks through the blinds
And the battle starts..
Battle with the mirror
concealing the scars,
a vain attempt to tame hair
“god why did u mess up, 
was it so difficult for you to create something pretty? ”
mirror: 1, me:0 ;
And the struggle is not yet over
Putting on a fake smile,
Not giving any signs of losing the previous battle,
trying to fit in, getting through another day without making a fool of mine
Still ending up in misery..
School:1, me:0;
Taking it all out on the only people who care
And then blaming them for not understanding..
Family:1, me:0;
Enough for the day! Cant fight anymore..
Lying on the bed , 
As they say it gets better down the road,
tomorrow is going to be a new day,
won’t lose tomorrow .
Sleep takes over
Sleep:1, me:0;
Sun peeks through the window and  it’s the same sun as it was yesterday..

Total no. of battles lost: 6799717973088856855
and still counting…

– Gir!gettingthrough!ife

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Fainted memories!

You are still here, somewhere

in a part of the cerebellum,

Your love is still here, somewhere

in the corner of my heart,

The way you used to smirk, the way you used to tease,

The way you made me feel totally at ease.

Yes! It’s all still there somewhere in my memories…

How the days were blessed and nights were long,

How your voice soothed my ears like a dreamy song.

How just being with you made the pieces fall into place,

How you crushed me in your strong embrace.

Yes! It’s all still there somewhere in my memories, though not clear…

Waking up and sleeping in with smile on face,

The mere thought of you made my heart race.

Nothing else bothered when you were near,

No rules were meant to adhere.

Yes! It’s all still there somewhere in my memories, though not clear,

Even if they have now fainted, they are still very dear…

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– Gir!gettingthrough!ife

And, She Was Gone!

Every day she would shed little pieces of her personality,
Every day she would abandon a part of her unique self,
Every day she died, just a little.

Surrounded herself with the people, she could care less about.
For the ghosts of the past would come haunting, whenever she was alone.

She, who would love to ponder, now hated the self-talk.
She, who loved the solitude, now can’t dare to stay back.

Lost somewhere behind those glasses,
Amidst those line of codes,
She was nowhere to find…

Day by day, piece by piece,
She was gone has been gone for a while now…

 

Is There an Expiry Date to Creativity?

Flannery O’Connor has said that,

“Nothing needs to happen to a writer’s life after they are twenty.
By then they’ve experienced more than enough to last their creative life.”

I am 21, and I think, am yet to experience lots of things in life.
I am yet to fall in love, yet to experience heartbreak, yet to feel the agony of losing a loved one, yet to travel the world, yet to LIVE…

I would really like to know, what you all think about it. The reason I am posting this is because I heard about this in a movie called Stuck in Love, and it got me thinking if this is why, nothing is happening in my life now, it has become so monotonous, or should I say easy.

What’s a life without any struggle, without hardships, without any bliss, without any excruciation? And what’s a writer, without any of the above experiences…

Comments Are Invited!

Switch-off

I switched-off the button,
and all the feelings left.
They left as if they were never there.
They left without much fuss.
And I was proud,
I was proud to have such control over them.
They now reside in a grave deep buried,
Where there reach no daylight or soul of night.

Except for when they left, created a void in me,
Vacuum perhaps,
leaving me completely blank and numb.

Now everyone is either not good enough,
or too good.
Small or too tall.
Ugly or too handsome.
Imperfect or just too perfect.

Unwilling to move on.
Can’t bring the brain to switch-on the button again
But the heart, it still clinges onto you..

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– Gir!gettingthrough!ife

Its just the beginning

Have you guys watched that movie called ’17 again’? Well, it was a comedy movie, but there was a dialogue in it which had a very deep meaning and probably an important life lesson too. It goes like: “When you’re young everything feels like the end of the world. But it’s not; it’s just the beginning.”

An acne, bad-haircut, poor grades, fights, heartbreak and we think that our life is over. It is not worth living anymore..
Tomorrow when we step out of our comfy bubble, into the real world, the challenges get real too. Will we be ready for them??

Do you know how a butterfly learns to fly? At first, the caterpillar creates a cocoon around itself and then one day it struggles to get out from that cocoon, so that the fluid is passed to its wings and the butterfly will have strong wings. But if you try to save the caterpillar some struggle and help it to get out of its cocoon, it will never be able to fly, it will spend its life crawling. The butterfly is supposed to struggle, only then it can fly.

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When we will get older and wiser, the problems that we face today may look so small and even how we react to them now, may seem stupid to us later in life. So consider all the troubles we come across today, as the struggle that we are supposed to go through, so that we will have the strength to fly when the time arrives. Remember, its just the beginning!

– Gir!gettingthrough!ife

that Illness called Goodness

If you are good, no one will care to do things for you because they know you will still love them unconditionally and will still treat them well, because, that is what you always do..

They will never remember you in good times, but you will always give them a shoulder to cry on in their bad times, because, that is what you always do..

They will never know what you have been through, because you never speak about your pain as you are so busy comforting them, because, that is what you always do..

They think you can’t see through their tricks, but you actually are very well aware but still choose to overlook, because, that is what you always do..

Universal truths-

  • The person who gives alot ends up having nothing.
  • The person who forgives easily is always betrayed the most.
  • The person who always wish best for others, has worst luck.
  • The person with the brightest smile is also the one with the saddest heart.

– Gir!gettingthrough!ife

Changing equations..

The people around whom my whole world revolved once, are strangers today.
The people I once cried with, today even their smiles don’t reach their eyes.
The people who promised so much, forgot their vows.
The people who used to meet with warmth, seems so cold today..
Those with whom I used to see eye to eye on everything, today we can’t find any common grounds.

I guess this is how life is.. People are meant to change, equations are meant to differ.
Maybe I just wasn’t as ready as them, for this change and it took me some getting used to.
But what really surprised me was,

how surely they left, how effortlessly they adapted to it,
How easily they grew apart while i was still stuck finding the roots..

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– Gir!gettingthrough!ife